New Beginnings a journey to completion

Well I am getting old. This is obvious. So I have a few new goals that I plan on implementing now. I have a lot interests that I would like to document. My hopes for this particular blog has now changed. I want this blog to be a true reflection of me. I am a complicated, busy, movie loving, fashion loving, poetic, foodie. I love positivity and uplifting others. So that is what I want you to see when you read this blog. My new blog will focus more on what is going on in the news. Ju'lia Catherine will become more personal. I am at the age that I feel I should be pretty clear about who I am. Unfortunately, I don't think I am. I am inviting anyone who is actually willing to take the time out of their day to read the blog to join me as I try to change what I don't like about myself and embrace what I do love about myself. I am hoping my lessons can be lessons for someone else as well.

If anyone is reading this or has been reading my blog, thank you!! I don't think it will be boring. I have been told I am pretty weird and no one really likes normal. So thanks for now. To New Beginnings.

New Years Resolutions

Meditate (intimate prayer every day)

Actually get a real hair care regimen

Stop being so shy

Increase my confidence

Learn French

Learn a new recipe every day

Write something worth reading every day

Finish my novel

Work out every day except Sunday

Deuces,

Ju’lia Samuels

Happy Holidays

I am really happy I got a few of the things I have been jonesing for. Mulberry purse from Target, Jay-Z book Decoded and the Apple is old. There was also the standard clothes but I was super excited about the purse I wanted it for so long and I was dying for the Jay-Z book.

How to Rescue Me

I find that I get I get lost in thoughts about life itself #

The cascading effects of obstacles

Make it difficult for me to move in stealth

My greatest fear has always been that you knew and could read the fears written on my face

After all this time of crouching low to the ground, my body aches

This is more than I agreed to take

After a decade of hiding, I must admit that I am tired of trying

I have no energy left to please you

I have no more savvy

to forcibly humble myself to praise you!

My acceptance of your problems

And my decision to go on a conquest to rescue you

has left me

Abandoned

with no canoe

You weren’t even kind enough to leave me a rescue tube.

I am left to build myself up on bottomless seas

When if you had asked, I would have given you the last breath of air that I breathed

It’s funny how people always lecture you to be kind to others but never to yourself

It’s a problem that I don’ t know how to properly congratulate myself -

Why the most difficult thing to hear is a compliment

Even more unfortunate, if eyes rest upon me

I begin to shift

It has become hard to believe in myself

I realize now

In learning how to save the world

I never learned how to love myself

And lets be honest, how valuable can I really be

when I don’t even know how to rescue me?

Good Look

Photo taken from Fashion Bomb

The Casting Society of America’s 26th annual Artios Awards at American Airlines Theater on November 1, 2010 in New York City.

Jonesing

I think I will post things on here that I am jonesing for as well!!!! So here it is the purse that I want and I need!!!